Thursday, March 23, 2006

Hai,
Today was......actually the day isnt over yet...So,today is my Birthday.84-94-2004-2006,hmmm... 22 years have gone by since I was pulled into this world by some lady doctor whose name my mom so clearly remembers(she told me just a minute ago and I already forgot it..) and still I dont think I have done anything that makes all my years of being alive worthwhile...

I asked myself a question today,"If I die this moment,what are the things I would have regretted of not doing?" Would I be able to say,like the great Vito Corleone that "Life is beautiful" at the moment of my death? It must be disturbing to people who read to think of a fellow talking about his death on his Birthday..but we all do it....In our hearts and in our minds...My questions gave me answers that made me shiver.

If I am dying this moment, The first thing that I would think about are my wasted talents . I know nobody will believe if I said I used to have the talent of the brush and that I could paint or sketch anything I saw...And if I said I was a very good player at shuttle and I can still run for miles without taking a break...

I have the gift of the Gab,but what purpose does it serve?I make merry,I had saved my face at times but I still couldnt get through the HR with my all pleasing language that my friends fancy in me...The guys told me I could never fail a HR...wel,believe me,It isnt the only time I failed to live up!

Ofcourse I had a good nickwith shuttle,but its been years since I even gripped a shuttle raquet...whats the use?But those friends who used to play with me , Loved my game more that me...

I had the talent of the pen,where have I shined? Do I have any prizes to trumpet the skill of my pen?No..Here again only my friends feel my words are really worth something,then again...

Then comes my family.Have I ever served anything pleasing to my Dad?NO Have I ever done anything that didnt turn out to blow up on my mom?NO Have I ever given my sister,a person so proud of me, any real reason to be proud?NO.

My country?NO.My World?NO.Have I wiped hunger off a poor guy with my own money?NO.Have I ever stuck on to a resolution made?NO.Have I ever put in my full effort in anything I do?NO.

I am sinking.What would my life be worthy of?Nothing?Really...It cant be...Then the angels smiled at me...

One thing that I would NOT regret if I die today,this moment was, all The friends I had earned through out my life...Ofcourse I have torn my skin many times while picking these roses,but neverthless the Thorns showed me the value of these roses.

I have been truthful to all my friends.I love them like I love myself.I have never been as happy as I have been with my friends...

If my life ends today,I would definitely die a Good friend to all my friends,and a good man to my enemies...that,that feeling made me forget all the other regrets that would pass me in my death...I dont care,I am ready to die any day!

P.S..If I bored u,forgive me...afterall this is my first post!

10 comments:

Li. said...

u have done all u cld do li! i am always proud of u!!!

mystery said...

hey..dont bother what others think about ur blog...its all about u...:) many more happy returns of the day...Ensoi!!!

raz said...

u have done all u cld do li! i am always proud of u!!!

this was by me, i wrote by mistake from his id ! he he... fraud velai.. adjust pannikonga.. :)

neighbour said...

raz and li: rendu perum sernthu velltula thaan fraud velai pannreenganaa ingaiyumm appaidyaaa...

Many more happy returns of the day..

Enjoy the days buddy...

senrush said...

Enn manamaarndha iniya pirandha naal vaazhthukkal. Nee vaazhga, nin kulam vaazhga, nin venkotrakkudai vaazhga ;-).
hope and pray, for swami to b with u always....

kuttichuvaru said...

hey Oli,
Many More Happy Returns of the Day!! (belated maybe).... Hav a gr8 yr ahead!!

n the finishin paragraph tat u hav given, tats the more important thing in life than anything else!!

hav a blast!!

Ramesh said...

happy birthday...

sukhanya said...

hey oli... nice to see ur scribblings here...

many more happy returns.. (technically belated happy returns)....

hope u are doing gr8... veetula innum edhukku thollaya vechurukka?? ota vendiyadhu thaana?

tata
sukku

dakaltiz said...

nice one on ur B'day dude..Belated B'day wishes...and wishing u the best in life!

Continue celebrating friendship and friends!

Precious Light said...

so u were born on 23rd of March.. :)
Very inspiring.. This is like a reflection of what I am thinking right now.. very impressive.. At that point you are exactly what I am now.. I know in five years the world would have turned upside down.. But it was very nice reading it.. Your dad mom and sister will be proud of you now.. you are inspiring me with every blog I read