Hai,
Today was......actually the day isnt over yet...So,today is my Birthday.84-94-2004-2006,hmmm... 22 years have gone by since I was pulled into this world by some lady doctor whose name my mom so clearly remembers(she told me just a minute ago and I already forgot it..) and still I dont think I have done anything that makes all my years of being alive worthwhile...
I asked myself a question today,"If I die this moment,what are the things I would have regretted of not doing?" Would I be able to say,like the great Vito Corleone that "Life is beautiful" at the moment of my death? It must be disturbing to people who read to think of a fellow talking about his death on his Birthday..but we all do it....In our hearts and in our minds...My questions gave me answers that made me shiver.
If I am dying this moment, The first thing that I would think about are my wasted talents . I know nobody will believe if I said I used to have the talent of the brush and that I could paint or sketch anything I saw...And if I said I was a very good player at shuttle and I can still run for miles without taking a break...
I have the gift of the Gab,but what purpose does it serve?I make merry,I had saved my face at times but I still couldnt get through the HR with my all pleasing language that my friends fancy in me...The guys told me I could never fail a HR...wel,believe me,It isnt the only time I failed to live up!
Ofcourse I had a good nickwith shuttle,but its been years since I even gripped a shuttle raquet...whats the use?But those friends who used to play with me , Loved my game more that me...
I had the talent of the pen,where have I shined? Do I have any prizes to trumpet the skill of my pen?No..Here again only my friends feel my words are really worth something,then again...
Then comes my family.Have I ever served anything pleasing to my Dad?NO Have I ever done anything that didnt turn out to blow up on my mom?NO Have I ever given my sister,a person so proud of me, any real reason to be proud?NO.
My country?NO.My World?NO.Have I wiped hunger off a poor guy with my own money?NO.Have I ever stuck on to a resolution made?NO.Have I ever put in my full effort in anything I do?NO.
I am sinking.What would my life be worthy of?Nothing?Really...It cant be...Then the angels smiled at me...
One thing that I would NOT regret if I die today,this moment was, all The friends I had earned through out my life...Ofcourse I have torn my skin many times while picking these roses,but neverthless the Thorns showed me the value of these roses.
I have been truthful to all my friends.I love them like I love myself.I have never been as happy as I have been with my friends...
If my life ends today,I would definitely die a Good friend to all my friends,and a good man to my enemies...that,that feeling made me forget all the other regrets that would pass me in my death...I dont care,I am ready to die any day!
P.S..If I bored u,forgive me...afterall this is my first post!
