Happy Birthday...!

எங்குட்டு பாக்குற? உனக்குத்தேன் சொல்றாய்ங்க...!

Y am i so depressed...? Somebody plz tell me wat it is.. It is not the sadness itself that is torture.. It is not knowing the reason for this ton in my heart that really depresses me more... Do u ever feel so?


Someone asks you how you are feeling today..
n the usual reply is either a 'gud' or an 'ok'..

'Gud' may be good.. but.. is 'ok' really okay?
it is usually said, cos u cant say ur depressed..

crazy... cranky....grumpy.... bye....

JOB Migraine! :-<

Read the title as Job 'Migration'? well, read it again.. I meant Migraine.. no.. I didnt make a spelling mistake n am not trying to cover it up.. I did mean Migraine.. The Head Ache called 'Job Migration.. ' >-P

Well, tell me about it...Running a well oiled , well running business is itself not so easy a task... Trying to set up something one your own! trying to run it.. :-O please don make me cry...

My 'company' has 3 staff.
one -me no 1(read it as number one, not No-one)
two- my friend no 2,
three-amy friend no 3...

today this no 3 says he's got an call from another company... now I know how the HRs feel when my friends quit their job n jump to a different company for as much as an extra scoop of icecream on their lunch.. :-p

... atleast those companies have a million resume's of jobless/jobful-but-ready -to-jump/ready to work for 25 hrs per day/No-intention-of-working-after-joining , candidates stacked up next to their trash can to replace these flying angels.. but me? :-p

....Its my fault.. yup.. the guy got call for the job interview a few weeks ago.. around new year..It was christmas season.. n I didnt have much of projects anyway.. n I told him he cld go since the pay there was like 4 thousands higher than wat I can give him for the next few months.. n the guy has a a family of 3 dependants.. his dad, mom n a sister who's studying.. so I was wilin to let him go , n in fact happy for him... he attended interview n was asked to wait... he came back.. Never heard from dem...I said ok.. no probs.. forget them.. lets get busy...

....but now... We're half way into 3 projects... they call back suddenly out of nowhere... n if he
quits now.. jeeez...

Its ok.. well actually... I feel I shouldnt stop de guy.. after all he has a family which needs de money... இருந்தாலும்... 'எங்கிருந்தாலும் வாழ்க'னு.. பாட நா என்ன AVM.ராஜனா?

** ( டேய்.. அந்த பாட்ட பாடுனது AVM.ராஜன் இல்ல.. தெரியாட்டி மூடிகிட்டு இரு.. அந்த பாட்ட பாடுறது கல்யாண் குமார்... )**

ஓ..பாரேன் சொல்லவே இல்ல.. :-( .. இப்ப அதுவா டா முக்கியம்? அப்டி பார்த்தா அந்த பாட்ட பாடுனது PB.Sreenivas தானே.. >-p வெவ்வவ்வெவ்வே...
:-\ பார்ர்றா இவன.. இவ்ல feel பன்னி சொல்லி கிட்டு இருக்கேன்.. அப்துல் ஹமீது மாதிரி தப்புசொல்லி காட்டிட்டு இருக்கான்...

சொல்ல வந்ததையே மறக்க வெச்சிட்டானுங்க டா... :-(


So as is was saying.... Business is tough.... **(hey... Nothing is easy... ok... இப்ப வெட்டியா உக்காந்து உன் blog ஏ படிச்சிக்கிட்டு இருக்காங்களே அது மட்டும் easy னு நெனச்சியா ? ஹ்ம்ம்? )**

ok,ok..now I donn wan' another argument wid u.. shut up..

Now what do i gotta do to ? What do I gotta do? What do I gotta do? hey....IDEA...!!!!

Any desperate soul out there ready to work for free lunch??? Apply now..(ya, I am talking to YOU... cos from what i see, if u're having enough Time and Patience to read MY blog.. u must be reallllly JOBLESS, ABSLUTELY desperate with NOTHING to do......... so... ) apply with ur resume's immediately... job is urs!!!

Please forward this blog ID to all your friends, esp. any "gud looking girls"(single, committed, non- committal... any status :-p) who'r looking for job... u can even drop the 'gud looking' criteria.. :-p ... I WILL HIRE THEM!!!

(god... hope this works out!)

பி.கு. என்னடா, எங்கயோ ஆரம்பிச்சு எங்கயோ முடிச்சிருக்கானேன்னு உங்கள்ள சில பேர் யோசிக்கறது தெரியுது.. பெரியவங்க என்ன சொல்லிருக்காங்க? அங்க இங்கன்னு எங்க சுத்துனாலும், கடைசியில காரியத்துல கண்ணா இருக்கணும்னு சொல்லி இருக்காங்கல்ல? :-p

பி.கு. பி.கு.என் character- ரையே புரிஞ்சிக்க மாட்டேங்கிறிங்களே....

ஆர்த்தி..

நல்லவள்,
வல்லவள்
நாலும் தெரிந்தவள்
அன்பானவள்,
அறிவானவள்
பண்பானவள்,
பணிவானவள்..

நீ போட சொன்னதை எல்லாம் போட்டுட்டேன் ஆர்ட்ஸ் ... இப்ப போதுமா? :-p

என் வம்புத்தோழி :-)

am comin darling...

it can't be..
it can't be...
can't u all see?

he was right here..
he was smiling..

he just asked y...
he just waved bye..

they say he's no more..
but he's gonna walk right in
right through the door..

crazy ppl, he's only slept..
how dare u even say he's dead?

let them see wat i know dear
just open ur eyes and
show them ur still here..

donn u realise chotu will cry
n its already late for the surprise
u promised me tonight..

get up darling, u never sleep so much
get up darling, more than ever
now i need ur touch...

they say he was crossing the road..
so..? he always walked the corner
to get me a rose..

they say the driver was drunk..
so...? my darling was always careful,
he had so much in heart for our son...

he hasnt left us alone..
no no no...
he is just lyin down tired...

I'll make him a coffee..
ya, can't u hear...? he's calling..
am coming dear..
am coming...



p.s: was going through a blog.. the blogger described the shock of hearing the sudden death of a friend she met only 3 days before.. instilled dis work.. my prayers for the soul..

started... somehow.. lonely...

well.. the week was ok... z n a are committed.. and i offically know it from last week... fought with d for a stupid silly reason.. i dono.. can't get back to normal... watched taare zameen par at maya..liked the movie a lot.. very very touching... i kinda weeped... throughout de movie.. am ok wid it, i feel its ok to cry wen something touches u..nothing silly abt it.. but the problem was, i forgot my hanky.. :-\, but i wasnt de only one teary eyed der u know...(i could even hear someone sobbing from one of the seats behind me.. :-> ) then...

I miss somebody to talk to.. to open up.. kinda feel like Ishaan... i know am not a kid...but still, its hard wen u start feelin lonely.. hmmm... usually its d.. sometimes a.. but a is kinda held up at de moment.. n its kinda hard for me to talk her nowadays.. d.. i dono.. i feel i shd stop whining to her too... guys r always der... but den its not de same..

read 'Buddha' recently... didnt like it much.. twas ok.. but felt tht the author was himself not clear of B... but read it anyways... read a fiction called 'Wolf Brother' before that.. can be expected to be made into a movie soon.. twas gud...

business is not wat it seems.. things never happen at de pace u want them to... i hate it.. but i have no go.. i miss my kavithais... i just donn seem to be able to write anymore... i dono..nothing comes up.. i never suceed wen i sit down wid de aim of writing a piece.. it comes unexpectedly usually..but now i feel abandoned...

Hajira's wedding... i forgot.. myself, maha, kamila, dhoulath ,hema, gai, mani, riaz, hema-v , nazreen etc wr der. it was ok... my mom was also der.. she enjoys the company of my friends.. sometimes she's little too friendly..(I get jealous.. ;-) )

Everybody loves my mom.. i feel sad for her sometimes.. cos u kno.. we never give her wat she really deserves... she's never valued her worth... poor mom.. i love u amma... i hope to be a better son.. atleast i shd reduce my part of worries n burden frm her... but then again.. :-p


well, spoke to z.. nothing much frm his side.. trying to make some new friends in orkut... someone annonymous.. who wld listen to all my crap..n talk... well.. u know.. some nice decent girl... but it needs lotsa guts.. paakalam... i donn think wld ever...

here i am ...sunday..sitting at home... nothing to do.. no one to call... speak to... borrred...


gud bye my friend... take care
our road together,
ends here..

its time for us to part,
to take on different paths..

in my lonely journey
i will miss u, i know...

but ur life is ahead,
i must let u go..

but someday wen ur done,
wen life leaves u alone..

come back here my friend,
to this shade,where we part..

i promise to be here for u ,
before i last depart

but till then, keep this song
keep it, to keep u strong...


gud bye my friend...
adieu.. gud bye my friend..
miss u..


hey..just when i was whining to u abt my poetry ditching me.. gud.. thanks :-) dis is y i love u...

p.s. i just wrote this in 2.32234 mins so, if it doesn's satisfy the iambic pentametre rules of poetry.. i beg ur pardon..

கல்லூரிக் கவிதைகள்...




உயிர்..

தீ குளித்தும் தேகம் வேகவில்லை,
உன் நினைவினில் என்னை நனைத்துக்கொண்டேன்..

மூழ்கடித்தும் நான் சாகவில்லை,
உன் கனவுகள் தானே சுவாசிக்கிறேன்..

நெஞ்சில் -வாள் பதித்தும் உயிர் போகவில்லை,
என் இதயம் என்றோ இழந்துவிட்டேன்..

இப்படி உயிர் பிடித்து உன்னை தேடி வந்தேன்,
பெண்ணே -
நொடியில் - முகம் மறுத்து என்னைச் சாகடித்தாய்...




கவிதைப் போட்டி..

வருடங்களாய் புதைத்த சோகம்,
யுகங்களாய் நீண்ட காதல்,
நிமிடங்களில் தங்கிய நினைவுகள்,
நாளை சுமக்கும் கனவுகள்,-
எல்லாம் செதுக்கிச் செதுக்கி கவிதை வடித்தேன்...

அரை நிமிடத்தில் அலசி விட்டாராம்-!
கவிதை கசங்கி காகிதம் ஆனது...

அமெரிக்க கவிதைகள்...



இரவு விடிய நான் காத்திருப்பதே,
விடியலில் உனக்காக காத்திருக்கத் தானே.
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நான் கவிதை எழுத
உன் காதல் தேவை இல்லை கண்மணி.
என் காதல் தோல்வி போதும்.

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இந்த வழ-வழ அமெரிக்க சாலை எல்லாம்,
உலகிலேயே அழகான உன்
தெருவிற்கு சமமாகுமா? :-)
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உன் பிரிவில் வாழாமல் இருக்கும் சக்தி எனக்கு உண்டு.
ஆனால்,
உன் வருகை வரை சாகாமல் இருக்கும் சக்தி என்னிடமில்லை...
சீக்கிரம் வந்து விடு...
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அடிப்பாவி, உன் மந்திரம்
இங்கும் பலிக்கிறதே,
இந்த அமெரிக்க பேனாக்கள் கூட
உனக்காக தமிழ் கவிதைகள் எழுதுகின்றன பார்..
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அட, 'Bread'-யிலும், 'Juice'- யிலும்
எப்படித்தான் வாழ்கிறானோ
என்று கவலைப்படாதே,
நான் வழக்கம் போல்
உன் நினைவிலும், கனவிலும் தான் வாழ்கிறேன்...
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இசையும், மதுவுமே
இரவாகிப் பொன இந்த ஊரில்,

--> நான் மூழ்க இசையும்ஒரே மது நீதான்...
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-- ஒளி.

What we all want....

Somehow... whenever friends, old or new, sit n talk...this topic does come up... always... n everybody has so much to say..sometimes...so much not to say... yup...

One night.. after a party.. while all of us are sittin around on the couch... laughin... smiling...n giggling....always... It comes up..someone.. somehow..brings it up... yup... Love...

Topic of Love, relationships, expectations, marriage n apparently... the good old, what does the opposite sex want? what boys want, what the girls want... conceptions, mis-conceptions...n after that round couch discussion... u just seem to feel so much clearer n light hearted n alive... n the guys just seem so much more than the always joking, never serious drunken goof ups they were few hours a go.. :-) i mean seriously.... n the girls.. Your respect for them just increased ten times....

This talk about Love, n the opposites, does bring something out of everybody... something that people always try hard to keep low... The biggest flirt talks about being used n thrown... The nerdiest guy, speaks such beautiful poetry that u can never even imagine him to speak... n the brightest ,funniest n most bubbling girl, is teary eyed... n the most talkative of the lot- silent...

Have you experienced that? At that moment, you know.. that these r the real people... The people that you have never seen before in your friends, n u may, never see again in a long time...

Love does affect everyone, doesnt it? well..

I will tell you one fact today... A fact tht I know...A fact that most girls dono.... But a fact that most girls think they know... A fact that they badly want to know... A fact they r not going to believe....

When guys hang out.. Close friends I mean...... Not just any bunch of guys...Buddies.... when they hang out... To put in simple words...When they are themselves.... They never care about the sexiest girl n school... they never talk about that voluptous actress from that last movie...

N they don't for sure, talk their dreams of the 'should be' perfect girl... They talk truth... They r plain, about how they dont expect an angel..how they would simply like the plain girl they see and how it would be so simple for her to please them... they just want the girl to put n minimum effort to keep the ship sailing.... they r all prepared for the compromise..

How they wouldnt mind her being another man's girl before... and how if she simply loved them, it would be enough for them to forget n forgive anything she had ever done before... They even talk like saints... About how they are not saints themselves... :-)

It is true... but when it comes to a guy speaking to a girl...Teling her about the girl he would love, He will always explain what he would like in his girl.. in his wife... he longs for... How he would like her to be smart, to share his passions, to be beautiful.... but always hides how he would forget all this n love the girl who can just love him back...

That is the truth n all true love stories... They love each other just for the love....

but guys... I know some of us have lost our faith in the four letter 'BS'.... I personally feel love is crap most of the times... What the hell is it... if not a sex hunt...? But then again... Give ur heart another chance... yes, you were hurt... It was bad... it broke u down... but... There must be a girl somewhere out there whose just born for you... a girl who will love you, even with all her flaws, will love u back....

n girls.. there is a guy out there who would treat you rite... accept his weakness n cuddle up n give it to you to take care of him...

Reminds me of the few lines I read in a Hallmark store...

Dance as if no one can see you,
Sing like no can hear you,
n Love like you've never been hurt...

Yes... It may hurt you sometimes....if it hurts, our friends are always there those idiot girls n guys who can make you smile no matter what... so, go for it....

You may never know what a guy or a girl really look for in the other... but it doesnt matter...
If you truly love, those dont matter...

Enchanted with Autumn....

One of the most beautiful things I saw in this trip, is not one thing, but a season...
There is a season called Autumn... There is no autumn from where I come from...
Only summer..and the rains..

Spring is like the perfect dressed ,cheerful , beautiful girl... Everybody likes her,I would like her too... but to me, autumn is the simple, smiling, plain girl that you see... The girl who is not beautiful...but cute... in just the plain clothes she is on... spring's beauty is in colours... Autumn ...Its something else...

How beautiful can death be? Just as beautiful as life can be...Autumn is beautiful...In a way that is special... That is what autumn is... beauty found where we don't expect it... A raindrop, a waterfall, snowfall, Autumn leaf... what is common to them... Their beauty lies in their fall....

You see, in autumn, Brown is not brown.. Brown is orange,brown is gold ... filling the ground, spreading a floor... gliding through the air.. downfall.. the air is not cold.. not cold to freeze..but cool enough to give the tingling goosebumps..The sun is out..but its not burning... Just enough shine to to light your day up...

It makes me feel like falling in love... I wonder... about the reason its said, people 'fall' in love... :-)

The streets which look washed n cleaned every morning from the rain at the nights...but the real beauty is the sun shining on the wetness glistning... I dono.. everything seems to be happen in slow motion...n in sepia... The cold breeze... touching your earlobes... Autumn..

Its a transition... from one holiday season to another... from summer into christmas... Its a transition....from heat to cold... Summer is beautiful... Snow is beautiful too...but the most beautiful thing, is the travel of the season from summer to winter... the most beautiful thing is autumn...

But..Would I like it to be autumn always? :-) No... Autumn is beautiful.. yes just as i said..But it's the summer heat n winter cold that make Autumn so much more special.. Autumn is like the beauty of a girl's tears... My girl is most beautiful when she cries... But I wouldn't want her to cry always... I want her tears just enough for my fingers wipe... I want autumn, only as much...